Violet,, you're turning violet, Violet

I think I really like this dress! no one has commented at work but mah, who gives a shit? I like it! :-)

I'm kinda bored. I am making an effort to get more sleep- last night I was in bed by 10pm, asleep by 11pm and awake (slept it lol) by 7am. Thats like 8 hours!

ION.. my hair looks freakin off today. Stiff and dry and boofy but greasy at the roots, lol.
IOON.. I am a super saving machine atm!

gray long sleeved tee under- Kmart
Purple short sleeved roll neck dress- cc

black zippered footless tights- target

black knee high wedge heel boots- kmart (aggges ago)

miaowww

black and grey kitty tee- from mummy from target

black skinnie pants- cc

cropped hoodie- cc

black flats- big w

my dirty work runners in the background.. eww

My mum bought me this top- she has the same. As in.. we match.. ha ha ha.. how gay. I really like it but. She gave it to me yesterday when I saw her at work. These are also my new pants.. they have sagged a bit in the knee as the day has wore on, but they are still ok! I like them! and $10 halloww!

I am tired and over it and tired. I cannot wait to go home and I have to get the bus for the next two weeks as Hugo is leaving early- wahhh!!! AND i told my boss before how I don't reallly mind being the last one up here but it does kinda suck and since I don't drive (and the fucking driveway is a long dark hazard in the dark) you know, maybe in a few MONTHS someone could swap with me? And I was told- nope. Hmmpphhh.

Home..treadmill.. chicken schnitzel... shower.. tidy...rice custard.. tv

Ho hum. Thursday week is my last IVF appt and then we start when my cycle starts a few days later- HURRY UUUPPPP!!!!!! I have started to cut back on coffee, am taking vitamins anyway and this saturday is my last drinkie session- a friends wine tour of the penninsula.. glug glug!!

boganista

I am as tired as a hatful of something..
worked 11 hours yesterday, being saturday. Did grocery shopping on the way home at 9:45pm, ate some vegies, did some dishes, did 2 km on the treadmill, showered and died. in. the. arse.
woke up this morning around 8:45amish. The best sleep in I have had for months I reckon. made Hubs a sensual breakfast, watched about 25 mins of TV (saw thriller video clip TWICE WTFFFFF) cleaned the house, washed the dogs, went for a quick driving lesson, went to the shops and bought hubs some boxers, myself a necklace and moisteriser, mum and me a coffee and then went to work with mumsy from 4pm-9pm. Tis now 10:42pm and am waiting for dinner.. yes that is correct. I am also showered and waiting for bed too :-) I cannot beleive that I worked 16 of the 48 hours this weekend gave me. but I need the dosh and am not working next weekend- at all! Scary!
Channeling a boganista. in work trackies and runners. new valley girl tank and cc cropped hoodie.

boom boom pow

black boots- kmart (new)

black leggings- big w

purple tunic- thrifted, savers

black cropped hoodie cardi- cc (new)

silver headband- supre

same bruisiness as yesterday mah.

i did some shopping last night as I had some kinda shitty news and needed some retail therapy. I perhaps will need some again tonight lol.
I bought;
black skinny leg button up pants- city chic, $10
black cropped hooded cardi (I am wearing this today)- city chic, $20
ditsy floral print tunic dress- city chic, $40
purple roll neck short sleeved mini dress- city chic, $10
black zippered leggings- $15, Target
Low black wide ankle boots- Kmart, $20
light blue denim leggings- Rosanna, $16
It still left me feeling empty. I might need to do a savers run tonight lol.

in other news..... rip michael jackson xx

Like a bruise..

Today I am all purple and gray like a big bruise.

I love love love purple and gray. and I refound this top last night. I was in the spare room (future baby room one day, yay!) looking for my hello kitty lanyard (don't ask) and I found some old clothes in a box. I found this purple tunic along with another purpley jumper thingy, a silver formal jewelled frock and some old leggings. I really like the top I am wearing today- and I am crazy for jewel tones at the moment- bold dark coloured, jade, purple, sapphire.

And yay for wet look leggings, have not worn them for a spell and I have missed them.

purple tunic- big w

gray gathered cardi- crossroads

wl leggings- city chic

chanel-esque flatties- big w

i am loving headbands at the mo

quiz me, quiz you

A: What accessories do you wear everyday? my diamond engagement rings and wedding ring. my silver and diamond heart on chain from mumsy. and usually a pair of earrings- faves at the mo are my diamante CC ones or silver filigree leaves

B: What is your beauty routine? I use Neutrogena anti shiny cleaner? I try to use an apsprin mask once a week and black head strips as weekend work kills me with blackheads. I moisterise maybe every second night. I have oily as skin but I never ever want wrinkles xx

C: What was the last item of clothing (for yourself) that you purchased? my lace over-dress from Supre.

D: Do you use a dresser, closet, or both? closet. 2.5 of them.

E: What type of earrings are in your ears right now? none as have been working out

F: What type of figure do you have (measurements)? Huge. Lol. I do not know what shape I have? A bit appley in the middle?

G: Do you wear glasses? Yes

H: What type of handbag do you carry? an oversize faux Dolce zipper bag in camel

I: What is your ideal style? model, off duty

J: What is your favorite brand of jeans? Serious? Big W branded skinnies- $25 and NEVER lose their shape.

K: Do you wear knee-high stockings? I would love love love to wear them ala Claire from ANTM. But I would look like a hippo in socks

L: Do you *have* to wear matching lingerie?No but I don't like to wear "printed" under garments much during the day. I like block colours.

M: Do you wear makeup? Sure do- Revlon CS foundation, Mineral powder on top, bronzer, blush, two eyeshadows, mascara, two lip sticks and a gloss.

N: Do you wear nightgowns?No, but I am really feeling a nightgown at the moment- with knee high socks on sunday mornings!

O: What outerwear do you put on when going out on a typical winter’s day? My grey flannel check coat or my black trench.

P: What is your favorite perfume? Armani ,Code or Rock, Ralph Lauren

Q: Is your motto “quality over quantity” when it comes to clothing and accessories? no way!

R: Do you wear rain boots? Never.

S: Do you wear socks or slippers when your feet get cold? yes, my leopard print slippers

T: Do you have a set of travel luggage? Nope

U: What is your daily uniform? leggings, boots, tunics, cardi's, scarves

V: If you are married, did you wear a veil with your wedding dress? Yes I did. Trimmed with swarovski crystals

W: Do you wear a watch? At times

X: What item of clothing always makes you feel beautiful? Anything stripey. And a cute empire line dress with tights.

Y: What is your favorite type of yarn? Pardon??

Z: Do you prefer zippers or buttons? Both?

Into the Blue

zebra oversize tee- lily + lou @ best and less

blue cardi- big w

denim leggings- supre

black boots- big w

leaf earrings- big w

Oh HI there.
OK, soo.. I have a uterus. It's a good shape. It has no nasties on it. I have follicles and stuff too, and ovaries. The lady who did it was soo nice and I befriended her so she would tell me what was what, he he. THEN I had to de-panty and have a dildo cam! THAT was unexpected and kinda gross. The only thing she said to me was that there appears to be or have been in the past some hormone imbalance. Hmmphh. But she said she was pretty sure it was something in the past because I appear to be ovulating fine, because she saw a dominant follicle (which should release an egg in a few days)
My blood tests came back clear too- soo I do not have any STD's.. and I know that that is something i shouldn't have been worried about (because I know be a good girl who always used protection in her past yeah? well.. I didn't) but I was worried about it.. and I knew that the ultrasound and blood tests were something I needed to have done but I was so soo shit scared! I have not yet spoken to the doctor but the ultrasound lately gave me a blow by blow this morning and the nurse at my doctors office told me the BT's were ok.. so.. guess what? I should be ok to start IVF next month!!
Exciting!

My hair is a little flat today btw.. because I washed it this morning but I kinda like it- the colour is not so ranga-ey when it is freshly washed and semi straightened. I like this cardi today because I needed to NOT wear any black today- well apart from my boots anyway! I just feel so uninspired at the moment clothes wise. Mah.

grey grey wah wah

grey boyfriend cardi- target

black lace tunic- kmart

leggings- big w

ankle wedge boots- target

belt- autograph

scarf- rubi

Today was such a wah wah stupid-arse day! Boring on all levels, mopey, wanting to pig out. lol

went to my aunties for dinner with nat and co, was fun... if you can disregard my crazy family happenings at the moment!

tomorrow morning am going for an ultrasound to check my fertiley bits. please god, make me ok. make my uterus an ok home for a baby to one day nestle (nestle?) I am so so sooo scared that this is going to happen;

Lady doing the ultrasound: Mmmm.. ok.. Oh. OH OH OK!

Me: everything ok down there?

Ultrasounder: Yeah. Yep. Yep yep yep, alllll good.

Me: No really

Ultrasounder: Well.. no. You don't have a uterus.

Dear God: Please do not make the above happen. I will be good from now on I swear. I just want the baby OPTION ok? yeah? cool. Love ya.

Shop Shop Shoppy!

OK so last night I went to the plaza- to get my lace dress.

I wanted to have a little wander so on top of the $30 lace dress I was allowing myself $70 extra.
I did Target- they had sweet FA. Like seriously. Admiting that but, my target is a shithouse target.
I did Kmart- please see above. They did however have the shoe booties I was lemming a month or so back for like $20- the issue here is the heel is kinda high. I am not sure if I would wear them. They are hawwwt however... hmm.. what to do, what to do.
I did Best + Less- see same for Target
I did Supre. I love Sups atm. I feel really weird in there, because I am large haha. And seriously, some of their shit is wayyy too small, but some (the made to be oversize lol) is ok. So i bought my lace dress, which is really a long tank on me lol but I love it and I have been thinking about it since I saw it two weeks ago. They also had tight lycra singlet dresses for underneath for like $18. I picked up a white one, and I do like the white under black lace but the white outlines alllll my bumps. I think the black will be more streamline. A little boring, but still good I think! I haven't bought that part of it yet, I want to try the lace dress over some stuff I already have first.
I then swung past Rubi Shoes for a scarf.. I ended up spotting some tassley ankle boots- I kinda wanted these since the start of winter but never found a pair that fit really well. Well, even though in the past I have found their shoes to be realllly small, this time they fit! shocked the hell out of me. I then saw a pair of black just under the knee suedey tassley boots- for $20 reduced from $70 on sale! I really like them- they are so bogan and 80's and they will not last forever, but for $20- who cares! I am soo having an outfit-build moment- new boots, black opaques, cut off denims and a striped long sleeve tee- and maybe a black vest!! I also got a $10 scarf from Rubi that looks suspiciouly like my others, only with a splash of red. hmm.

Can't wait for the day to be over. Have a hole in my leggings near my front bottom ha ha. I HATE that. Thank the lord for black knickers and a long-ish gray snakeskin tee.

black lace supre swing dress

black flat tassle boots from Rubi

red, black and silver scarf, Rubi

YOU look familiar!

white tunic/dress- dandenong markets (Deb K)

black ribb leggings- big w

brown boots- kmart

scarf- big w

You look familiar because

a) i seem to have had a thing for white/light tops, black leggings, boots and a cardi all week. Or all winter, lol

b) i wore this a little while ago and wasn't 100%. I like it better today.

I am sleepy and cold. It is 5 degrees at the mo

I am looking forward to;

• going shopping tonight and buying my lace overdress, dry shampoo, maybe a new scarf and hopefully the next house of night book i need to read!


• having a few hours at home by myself tomorrow night as husband is going out. I'm thinking, Lean Cuisine and sex and the city!


• seeing my peeps at a house party saturday night after working an 11 hour shift ha ha


• having a day off finally sunday! a WHOLE day! I might go see a movie!!

gold finger

black long sleeved tee- thrifted

gold fine knit tunic- crossroads

black rib leggings- big w

brown boots- kmart

blackc ardi- thrifted

OK so I have had this dress for ages. And I can totally remember when and where I got it. I got is from Crossroads in frankston when I was shopping with Kelly. We had been in Bridge Road Richmond in the morning selecting bridesmaid dresses and I bought my wedding shoes that day as well. Crossroads were having a sale and I saw this and it looked so so so hot on the hanger.. I tried it on and it was mah... it was a little clingy (it still is i think ha ha) but anyway, I bought it to wear to Natalie's birthday drinks the next weekend- it was only $25 on sale. I was going to do a black singlet under, leggings and boots. I tried it on over the next few days and was really mah about it still. I never ended up wearing it as I had a severe gall bladder attack the friday before her drinks and ended up in hospital. As you do.

As I am saving, I am trying to wear different things I have not yet worn or I have not worn a lot. It doesn't help either that I am really into wanting practical comfy clothes at the moment (i have not worn a skirt yet all winter!!) but anyway, this morning I decided to give it a go. I think I should have worn it when my hair was dark as gold wih dark hair looks awesome. I think I look a little washed out with the current hair colour but jeez.. I need some different stuff!!

Random Wafflings

cream bib front blouse- autugraph

black ribb leggings- big w

brown boots- kmart

Pretty boring, yah yah.

Yesterday my black flat boots broke. I was sad. My husband fixed them last night with some heavy as duty glue but I am resting them for a day or so, lol.

I just realised its like the middle of June and this is only my fifth june post. Where has June gone?? Serious!! I think I am working way too much, but I am saving a lot and that is good! Lots to save for! Apart from the two crossroads 50% off cardi's last week I really have not bought anything but i can't really see anything I want to buy either? I have a party this saturday night but its just a casual house party and after working an eleven hour shift I will be in something comfy. In two weeks I have a bigger party, a wine tour bus and then a pub afterwards and I need to find something hawwt to wear. I really like lace atm and want the lace mini dress from supre to wear over my WL leggings but I need something under the lace mini dress and not something black either I think- too much black. I might head to savers soon and look for a jewel tone slip to wear under? That would be cute? or maybe a white slip- i like the idea of a white slip under black lace, wet looks and maybe some brown or black scrunchie ankle boots. Hmm.. nice!!

with thrifted cardi

The week that was...

ok.. yes, it's been a while. I have been soo tired + so busy for these reasons;
trying to catch up with friends
working like every day as trying to save, severe
its freezing and all i want to do is sleep
trying to spend time nightly on the treadmill.

tis now friday morning and I want the day O.V.A.H so I can go home, cook dindins for the kiddies, do a workout, have a hot shower and crash in bed with a book..

below are some outfits from the week that was...

In the clothes shopping front, I have been quiet as have been saving and to be honest.. I haven't seen much I like as of late!
Big W- i popped in last night as they claimed to be having there once or twice a year sale- what crap.. barely anything plus sized was discounted and if it was- it was shit.
Kmart- they have a cute elmo hoodie at the mo, but it's a bit too cutesy for me i think. other than that- mah
crossroads- i like some of their shit, but the quality + cut is just crap. Sometimes I see something and I think, ohh that would be great! and I try it on and its terrible!!! All because of the shitty cut. Although they did have 50% off last night and I bought the grey cardi I am wearing below and a grey chunky cable knit hooded cardi.
Autograph- mah. Their belts are wide and elastic which I love but they are soft so they cave it on themselves. They had some cute zippered and studded leggings but they are thin and terrible quality and are kinda baggy on the ankles! Their knits are kinda grandma-ey
Best and Less- hit and miss. i have bought some great tops from their lily + lou range but they only seem to have the good lily and lou range at certain b+l's... not the one at my local unfortunately.
city chic- i find a lot of it tries to be a little too "torrid" and "gothic/emoey" and not really on trend? and its overpriced for what it really is- a fat version of supre, lol

sunday night, getting ready to go out in the city with friends
sleepy and delerious, tuesday morning
black ribb leggings and boots- big w
grey flannel hooded duffel coat- kmart


black ribb leggings and boots- big w
grey long sleeve tee- kmart
striped cable knit cardi- kmart




black skinny pants- regatta@myer
cream tunic top- big w
grey tie front cardi- crossroads
flat black boots- big w
eyes still closed.. sleepy :(

my manky cardi

I am tired.. and cold.. I just want to be warm on the couch with my doggies watching foxtel. I feel like this week has just flown by and I have had no time to just chill. Mum said to me last night that I have really bad time management skills and if I ever want to have a baby I am going to have to get better with that. Mah. Maybe I will google time management skills.

I am looking forward to this today;
Getting home quickly
Starting dinner- chicken schnitzel and baked pumpkin, potato, carrot and some broccoli
Doing a quick workout
Mopping the floor
Having a quick tidy
Having dinner with my husband
Watching a movie maybe, and sharing some “quality” time, ha ha.

Tomorrow I have to be up at sparrows fart (I LOOVE this expression, so bogan) and go to medicare and the CBA if open then work at the roast 11am-9pm YUKKKKKK
But then I have Sunday off and I am going to chill at home and bake- I am going to made splenda banana bread and splenda blueberry muffins, yummmm) then I am going out Sunday night and Monday- I have the day off!! Thanks to the Queen xxxx love you queen.

black tunic with white lace collar- big w

white/cream cable knit cardi- big w (its a bit manky and bally lol)

denim leggings- supre

almond toe scrunch ankle boots- target

update

Soo I went to savers the other night and buy nothing worth nothing, ha ha. It was crazy! So busy and I am just over sifting through clothes to find nothing! Thrifting has become too mainstream and all the good shit goes too quick.

I have been very sensual with my eating and exercise lately, am very proud. Last night I did 4 kms which is the most I have done on any given night on my treadmill yet.

I really like this outfit I am wearing today- remember this top, when I bought it from Myer? Can’t believe this is only the third time I have worn it, not very good value per outfit wear, but I had to wait till it got quite cold as it is a warm as top- and since I have been freezing my arse off this week so far in this 16 degree outside/freezing breezy old building weather inside, I thought it would be apt. and so far, I am toasty!

Things I am looking forward to;
Fish cakes for dinner, yum yum yum
Treadmill-ing
Sunday and Monday, no work! What will I do with myself for TWO days off!!!
more eps of True Blood- THANKS PAULINE!!!
more eps of Charm School with Rikki Lake
being pregnant.. one day, ha ha

black long sleeved tee- thrifted, savers

charcoal and black knit tunic- myer

black leggings- big w

boots- big w

these crazy dreams

ok so saturday night i dreamt my mon-fri job and my weekend job were merged.. and so its was an office slash kitchen, ha ha. It was really pristine and nice and it felt a bit like school?? Then last night i dreamt I went back to this courier company I worked at from like 18-22. My boss and I were kinda work friends but she was an absolute mole.. so anyway, I dreamt I went there and it was even smaller and crapper than I remembered and I think I thought I was going to see her, but she was like- ok so you remember xxx and xxx and then she kinda put me to work?!?! and I went along with ut, but in my head I was like 'WTFFFFFF!!!!! WHY am I back here????"
It was funny.. but kinda distressing.... NOW, wanna know what I think THAT means??

I think I have moved on a fair bit from when I was 18 and even though I feel old (it has almost been 10 years since I was 18!!!) I also wouldn't want to go back and be that same person I was at 18.. example.. I am now married (NOT that being married "makes" you) I do not eat as much shit as I did then and I actually exercise now and I do not smoke anymore.. I do have a better job and all in all.. I am just content with who I am in the world!