i love my fat arse but...

Billy on the way home from this mornings breakfast

WIW for breakfast;
black tank- best + less
cardi- crossroads
printed pants- supre
sandles- target

I just read out there in cyberspace something about resolutions to lose weight or diet are exercises in self loathing. I'll remind my doctor of that when he tells me how great it is for my health that I have now lost 30 kilos since the birth of my son. Dont get me wrong, I think I am all kinds of fab and I thought so when I was 40 kilos heavier ( a few years back) but I feel SO much friggin better now.
I actually commented on the said blog. I don't agree with a lot of the blog but that is fine, we don't all agree and I still read her blog and find it extremely interesting. I am not bagging anyone here but just stating how I disagree with her thoughts- which is fine!

Well anyway- happy new year. This morning Geoff Billy + I went out for breakfast in cheltenham and had awesome poached eggs and wholemeal toast and fabo coffee. I am about to go and hang out with Nat and Billy for a bit.

Merry Christmas and all that

Hope everyone had a magical Christmas!
We sure did!
Our first christmas with the boy, hilarious times!

Christmas eve was first spent at my work where I proceeded to CUT my finger REALLY bad then ended up at the gp getting butterfly stitches and a bloody tetnus JEEZ! Butterfly stitches are for GIRLS like me who can't hack someone sewing their flesh. Gross.
Then we went to my cousin and partner in crimes Natalies for our family christmas. Billy slept for ages then finally woke for pressie time. Clever baby. Christmas Day was spent the three of us, me billy and Geoff opening presents and eating lol. Then going to Mum and Dads for Turkey yum yum yum. Good times!
I have now finished my casual work so I am footloose, fancifree and broke LOL but happy. I want to think of a whole heap of FUN things to do over the next 4-6 weeks!

Spend a LOT of time in the sun with my bub.
Walk to mums for breakfast with Billy
Have lotsa coffee with Mumma and Billy
Go to St Kilda for the day with Mumma and Billy. Coffee cake and walks on the beach
Thrift shopping
A day trip with Geoff and Billy somewhere I have never been
A day of sensual spring (summer) cleaning
going to the movies with Mumma
sleepover with Nat
Going for my license again SIGH
Reading lots of books! Maybe joining a library! LOL
a hilarious drunk night out

oohh good times ahead!!

My christmas in pics....

Nat and Billy

Mum and Billy

me and billy

my family x

xmas day at mum and dads

Billy approves of his dune buggy!

He likes his new toys but he LOVES pulling mummas hair

the new dress I wore today, awful pic thanks to mum of course. I LOVE this dress (Glassons size 16!) but I have side boob fat SEVERE!!!!!! lol

City Chic, I am breaking up with you

I am not posting a pic. tonight i want to.. talk. lol
scared?

I just wanted to say how great it feels to start to fit into straight lines in clothes. It started a month or two back when I fit into a size 16 dress from Brown Sugar. yay. Then an xxl jayjays. Now Fusion by target xl which is a 16 I fink. Its a start you know? Because I am WELL AWARE the world is ALLL about FA right now.. umm fat acceptance. But I am not all about it within myself. I'm all about it in the aspect of NO ONE should be made to feel interior because of their weight and really, I was rocking FA when no one knew what the words F and A stood for.. apart from maybe fat arse. But nope, I am not happy within myself being fat. I have lost coming up to 30 kg's since May this year and by May next year I hope to have that above 50 kilos and to be close to my end goal weight.
OK, that aside, it will be great to NEVER have to worry about fatty clothes EVER again. I tell you right now, if CITY SHIT do not have a decent boxing day sale occuring then they will have lost me forever. They are dangling dangerously at the mo as is.
So I am doing some work at a fairly prominent melbourne shopping mall at the mo and EVERYWHERE has sales! Its like i dont even have to wait till boxing day. Crossroads, 50% off storewide. Autograph, the same. Target and kmart have sales galore. ALL except silly old city shit. I walk in every 2-3 days and walk out again. And the store is EMPTY. do they think we are fat AND stupid? Look, their clothes are great! NOT the same as straight line stores, I still find 80% of City Chic's clothes tacky but some stuff is awesome- and overpriced to the max. And some of their trends are severely dubious. The tribal, all good. The miami heat?? errmm not to good. I wasn't aware Ed Hardy knockoffs were in.
This link shows a dress i adore.
http://www.citychic.com.au/DENIM-ROSE-DRESS-.aspx?p15729

I bought a similar dress from Torrid for like $20 aus dollars.
There are dime a dozen dresses like this in Glassons (I fit their size 16 dresses, just- AND i'm a LARGE in city chic UMM GO FIGURE) Cotton On etc.

City Chic wake up. You are not designer. You are not good quality. You are a fat girls valley girl so start flashing me $24.95 price tags goddamn it. Get rid of the sequined shit and bring me some skinny cargos, some tribal print pants. Get rid of the outdated strapless fat girls best friend NOT dresses. Your shoes look like tranny shoes. And i am NOT going to be nice to you in the hope that u will send me overpriced, thread hanging SHIT to review. Good day.

Tribal

black tank- best + less
drapey cardi- kmart
tribal shorts- savers
sandsals- target

Worst photo in the world (taken naturally by my mother) but you get the gist. I had my hair done today. I had some ash brown foils done as well as my blonde and so right now it just looks very ashy until my normal toner fades a little. I also had my hair chopped into a longish bob to even out my hair so my front catches up to my back :)
These shorts are comfy as. I love them. I have seen heaps of girls wearing tribalish shorts out and about but I was a little feared to wear these but once I had them on, no fear at all. So comfy!
Back at work tomorrow. vomit.

its Bon Jovi Bitch

what i wore to bon jovi;
black floral dress- kmart
tights- big w
doc martens- not sure where from.. have had them since i was 14

I am a massive bon jovi fan. When I was growing up, (I am, the youngest of 6, they are all older than me by like 9 years, 11 years, 13 and 14 years) all my bros and sisters listened to Bon Jovi and I fell in love. The first album I bought myself was Keep the Faith in the early 90's. Love love loved it. Used to listen to it on my walkman (I taped it from the cd lol) in school all the time. Then I slowly bought Slippery when wet... new Jersey (probably the best album i reckon)... Bon Jovi and 7800 degrees farenheit. When These Days came out, I had it on pre order, LOVED it. Crossroads, tick. JBJ solo young guns, tick. I had a life size JBJ poster on the back of my wall and bought every magazine with them featured. I saw them in concert when I was 14 and yelled out I LOVE U JON when it was quiet and he CHUCKLED!!!!!!!!!! LOL.

I must admit, their newer stuff I can take or leave. Its OK, but very middle of the road. I reckon my top 5 favourite tunes would be... wanted dead or alive, in these arms, runaway, miracle, i'll be there for you.. maybe? its too hard to pick. Anyway, I saw them last night!!! In concert, once again!! Awesome time!!!

Two Years

Today was our two year anniversary.
This time last year I was pregnant with our son. This time the year before I was walking down the isle. This year I have a wonderful husband and a wonderful little baby boy. Life is pretty sweet.

Went into the city today with mum + billy to see santaland. Note to Myer Melbourne; some aircon at santaland would not go astray. As would toilets closeby. And maybe two santas, considering we lined up for an hour. Other than that, ok. Note to melbourne Central shopping centre, some lifts would be helpful to those of us umm with prams or wheelchairs. Douchebags.
This is what I wore today, dress is from brown sugar, vest from jayjays (itsNEW!) sandals are old targets. Excuse this pic as it was the end of the day and my hair and makeup was sadly awol.


This is what I wore to go to the Pavillion with Geoff for anniversary dinner while omi + poppy minded Billy. Vest is again from jayjays. Je l'adore vest. White cotton floral cami is from ages ago. Bag is from some randon surf shop, its a bigwripcurl bag. Skinny black jeans also big w a million trillion years ago. Mayybeee I should wear a white bra next time, hehe.

Hi from Billy!

coral doll

I bought this dress for $7 a few weeks ago at savers.. been wanting to wear it but between work and baby and not so warm weather, it has been hard. But today mum billy and I went shopping and it was a sunny 30 degrees so I wore it! I really like it, love the coral colour, love the style. I have my idea on a few things I want to try out at the moment, more shorts and more short stuff like dresses, skirts etc. I am thinking of bringing back my docs from 1994 and I am lemming a brown leather backpack.. soo 90's. I also picked up the more FABO soft soft denim chambrey tie up vest from jayjays today.. so awesome!

dress- savers
white tank- big w
silver sandals- kmart

What I wore to get in touch with my heritage

LOL

Today mum Bill and I went to the German churchs christmas bizarre. Yes I am German, well my folks are. No, I am not religious. Why did I go? Well my grandmother Mutti passed away when I was 21 and she was the total head of our family. Things have never been the same since she has passed and now that I have a baby I really miss her and I think she would have adored Billy. I miss the family things we used to do, I mean, we are all still close, but not so much as when I was younger and she was still here. This particular church was HER church and she was ALWAYS heavily involved with the bizarre. Mum and I didn't stay long as she dont know anyone who goes anymore really ( we did bunp into some old family friends which was really nice) and it was kinda boring.. but it was nice :-) I bought my son a gingerbread heart with Shnucki written on it in icing (not to eat, to keep, as a keepsake thingy) and we ate some roasted almonds. They had cake and it looked nice but I am not eating cake (well.. I would have made an exception but the line was too bloody long)

After that we went to parkmore for coffee and shopping. Billy was in the best mood ever, such a hilarious child. Cannot beleive he has two teeth now and can pretty much almost sit up by himself. Where is time going?

My outfit you have seen before recently in queensland. I am trying to wear more dresses and I adore this dress xxx

license schmisence

Black tank- kmart

white heart print cropped tee- jayjays

bleached jeans- bonds

thongs- city beach

OK so I know this is blurry. My husband was busy with the boy so I had to ask ym step daughter to take the pic then the camera died, blah blah.
I have been so freaking busy. Back at work, but not my work, just doing some casual xmas shit. It is 4 days a week 8 hours, on my feet all day. Its boring and hard but the cashie is pretty good. I leave Billy with mum 4 days a week so it is sad, I miss him and I have to look at mums with their bubs all day long at the shopping centre where I work.. but its OK.. Its just practise for me for when I'm back at work next year. I finish up with this work at christmas then I will take all of january off and then back to VE February 15th maybe??
So what else has been going on?? LOTS!

I cannot get my license. I have tried and failed twice. How sad!! Its REALLY hard!!!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 rocked my world. Geoff and I saw the midnight screening gold class. OMFG. I loved it. I love HP. I love Severus Snape. I am geekily obsessed.

Billy has not one but TWO teeth. Finally. YES!!!!!

I bought a dishwasher!! YAY!

Umm. thats actually all really. Bit sad hey?

I bought this cute little cropped tee from Jay Jays yesterday for a massive (not) $10. They do 2xl's now and the fit is good actually. WhoEVER would have thought I would wear a cropped tee??!! I love the idea, over a black tank. I think I was actually shitcanning the idea a few posts back lol- fickled young thing am i.

My little 6 and a half month spunk. God time is flying but I am seriously loving every moment xxx

a weeks worth

well we have just got back from our week away to sunny gold coast. What a fantastic holiday! One of the best ever and such nice weather. Was so depressed to get off the plane yesterday morning and feel this shitty cold weather :( I have put some outfit posts below... pls ignore hotel room mess hehehe

Dress- Torrid

Things- City beach

Blouse- Rosanne

Shorts- Big W

Black tee- target

Shorts- Big W

Things- city beach

Dress- City Chic

Sandals- Target

Belt- Big W

Tribal beach cover up- Ally Fashion
Maxi- Crossroads

aww.. sunrise on our last day. I can't wait for summer now!

floral shorts, the tribal dress and the test

top- city chic

floral shorts- thrifted, savers

Today I debuted these WONDERFUL new shorts- $3 from savers!! I LOVE THEM. pale denim, all just jeansey like lol. I wore another puff sleeved top, I really love these :-)
I wore this outfit to pass the written license test- so I am 50% on the way to my license!! WOO WOOOO!!!!!!!!

dress- crossroads

I am trying to decide if I like the above. I think i do!! All watermark tribally lol.

my weird body

top- city chic

jeans- thrifted

sandals- kmart

i have a weird body. in this shot anyway. I look like a triangle LOL.My upper body looks rather big compared to my lower.

I was on the way to the hairdresser. These are my new thrifted "boyfriend" 3/4 jeans. I like the colour. My top looks funny, its black and white stripe. My mum takes awful pics of me, she is too short.

That is all.

jeans west... fits best

grey puff sleeve tee- torrid

black crop cardi- crossroads

slim bootleg jeans- jeans west

flats- kmart

Do you remember the old jeans west fits best ads with.. was it Chloe Maxwell?? Lol.. anyway. Today I wore my new jeans. I had seperation anxiety from skinny legs but aside from that I was ok. I think I will quite like these jeans and get a lot of wear out of them, I think I like the way I look in them. This grey tee I was wearing, that is another story. Its my torrid puff (short) sleeve tee. I like it a lot but its one of those funny tops that is not too small but clings? U know? I hate that!!

Feeling the Floral

floral corset- torrid

cardi- target

jeans- big w

thongs- roxy

Hi hi. Just a quickie. This corset top was in my latest haul from Torrid. TBH I kinda understand now what people say about their all over the shop sizes but I guess I have been pretty lucky. Of the 7 items I bought a few are a little too big (still wearable but) and one is too small for now.

In other news I bought my first jeans west jeans today- was a proud moment! So happy to actually fit into their jeans!

just wanting to show off my OFF roots and MULLETY hair LOL how awesome is it??

life is good

What a lovely day.
Sunshine, me going for a drive woo woo! lunch with family, shopping with my favourite cousin, chicken and salad for dinner, daylight savings. Ahhh.. life is good.

white blousey singlet- city chic

skinny jeans- big w

sandals- target

Lilly + Lou Skirt Hmm

black tee- autograph

black cardigan- savers

black leggings- city chic

flats- kmart

skirt- lilly + lou via best and less

This morning, this above looked great but by the end of the day I was wondering..

I couldn't take my cardigan off u see because this skirt flares out heaps and makes my arse look rather mammoth. Also the skirt really hides up a lot so it looks REALLY short. I love the print but I am not 100% sure of it really.. because I love the print so much I will wear it again but yeah. I know I harp on and on about wanting plus size clothes that are the same as skinny clothes (because why really should the style be different?) but I *THINK* sometimes different care needs to be taken when making plus size clothes. Best and less's label Lilly + Lou is a perfect example. This skirt is great but could just be a TOUCH longer. Also they are selling a wide baggy cropped tee at the moment. Umm.. see, I am quite ok with a light coloured cropped baggy ree over a black singlet but reallly...?? A cropped tee in plus size, I dunno. All I want is a plus size Sportsgirl and Glassons.

P.S I dont know WHATS happened but my hair has gone UG as of late- FLAT and ferral :(

pink + gray

just a casual look for my driving lesson. yes i got the day right this time.
i think this tee is too oversized. i dunno. i was wearing another pink tee that i like better but billy spewed on it lol.

pink print tee- big w

jeggings- city chic

gray jacket- millers. like years ago.

Top tucked into pants! No way!!!

new leopard print sunnies- kmart $5 bargain

new purple nailpolish that i LOVE- free with Grazia Mag.

Well the title says it all really.


Today I *had* a driving lesson. Well no, I didn't. I swore I did and made mum come over at 9am to babysit Billy but at 10am when the teacher was a no show I called her and she reminded me it was the same time tomorrow. Sigh. So now mum and I haver to both get up early again. Blahhh.





So then Mum and I popped over to my aunties for a coffee, to the shops for lunch, then back to her place so dad could have some poppy time with Billy. Mum cooked me dinner and gave it to me to take home in little takeaway containers. Bless her. Then Billy cried for like 1-2 hours. Then I bought some shit off Torrid. 50% off clearance stock helloo. my day, the end. LOL





And I decided to wear pants over my puffed top for an extra 90's feel. It was kinda scary going the tuck in but I think I rocked it.

black harems- autograph

flats- kmart

heart print puffed sleeve top- city chic

Hello Spring!

what a nice day! I love getting out and getting photos taken in nice sunny day light! Today was like the first nice day of spring so we took the girls and Billy to the park for a bit and it was a great walk and so much fun! AHH spring! I cannot WAIT for summer this year!!

I also got to trial shorts over tights. I like the look, I tried it with a safe stripey top this time but I would like to explore this a little more next time- maybe some dark florals or lighter colours? I am after some more faded shorts however so will have to check out savers. Speaking of, I got some awesome shit there lately, will post about it soon..

striped top- city chic via ebay

denim shorts- big w

tights- sizewize

flats- kmart